My First Time: Developing a Fear

So this somewhat ties into being a video game topic, but that's more so how it all started and not how it developed. Once again I was about 6 years old and we had recently gotten our first computer. My dad was really into the thing and he would buy computer magazines and get these demo discs all the time. The one disc that stood out from all the rest though, was this one.

Demo disc with Resident Evil 1

Now, the disc itself wasn't actually what scared me. I was actually very interested in trying the game based off this picture, so one day I finally got to. Everything seemed to be cool, the game was very mysterious and I wasn't quite sure what was going on. I probably skipped the intro cinematic because all I remember is one thing.

That's all it took. I completely froze in my spot, died from him grabbing me and biting me to death and quit the game as fast as I could. I'm not sure why this zombie scared me more than the one on the demo disc since that one is much more terrifying, but it did. That wasn't the only thing though, in that same year I remember laying in bed one night, and my bedroom had a window that look out into the carport. So I'm just laying in bed, trying to sleep and watch some tv when suddenly this blueish face slams against the window. I scream like a baby as the 'zombie' claws at the window, then she smiles. My mom had one of those cleansing mask things on and was taking the garbage out, but that moment of fear will never leave me.

Sadly this fear still somewhat lives within me. I grew up with a fear of zombies and missed out on all the resident evil games up until Resident Evil 5. That game although, is just not scary and is pretty disgraceful to the others of the series. I also still can't watch a lot of zombie movies or shows without getting a little freaked out at times, although any other horror movie does nothing for me. It's kind of sad that until I was about 18 years old, I had a fear of something so.. fake.